need more sleepy
i pretty much havnt slept in the past 72 hours. all nighters suck anymore. they used to be fun and exciting and sort of a race against the clock but anymore i find myself getting extremely bored, randomly calling everyone in my phone on impulse, and my brain shutting down. yesterday i did all the creative and art direction work for campaigns. i was in front of a computer for 12+ hours and our ads came out pretty bangarang. a day late but bangarang no less. i need a fucking drink. or a big fat bowl. i plan on doing the latter in about ten minutes then taking a shower for about an hour. im sick of showing up at school two hours early because thats the only time i can get a freee ride to the train station then crashing on a random couch at school. im seriously a homeless man. and i probably talk alot when i actually do get two hours of sleep. everytime i wake up there i feel like people are looking at me like im insane...or just plain retarded. dicks. also what the hell! why do people on the train always stare at each other so much. it makes me so angry. if im getting off at my stop you dont have to look me up and down. its like im living in north philly again and getting called a snow bunny by random black kids every other day. which reminds me the other day me and jules stopped by broad deli so she could pick up some greenery from this kid shawn who always used to get it for us and hung out on the corner or at the barbershop. it was hillarious. we got into this huge convo with some puerto rican kid about the changing neighborhood, hurricane forties, and cordoroy. i miss living down there a little bit, granted im not getting mugged or hollered at but im sick of living at home and miss funny things like that happening. maybe i can sleep a full night tonite without having to worry about work being done. i painted my ass off last nite. the art seminar show is coming up in like two weeks, i have to give a speech, its gonna be really weird. i hate talking in front of people, unless its a client i have to pitch a campaign idea in front of. i can talk about ad concepts and creative direction but not about my own personal work. because im a pussy. we just got a huge plasma tv. i wanna have a tv party. i wonder how much sleep deprevation can make you go crazy.